charliephornia

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That Charlie in that Universe in that World, where good things happen to me, where we ARE together, should be driving me mad happy to the moon and over it because I’m here miserable going crazy not knowing what the fuck might have been!  You were and are still my obsession for five years.  It’s frustrating.  Well, no, it isn’t frustrating.  It’s deprived.  I’m deprived… of you. lol

I’ll probably never ever get over you and you’ll probably go on with your life without knowing your profound effect on me.  You’ll have a wife that adores you and three kids who think the world of you.  But, guess what, I’ll be glad you’re happy and doing well for yourself.  It just proves that I was never wrong to pin my hopes on you.  Yet, I still wonder what if that were me?

Actually, gusto lang kitang tikman pero ayaw mo magpatikim cuz that’s how noble you are which is probably why I admire you aside from the fact that I think you’re crazy hot and adorable because of that certain je ne sais quoi about you.

If this is just some shallow attraction and infatuation I have for you, then I seriously have no idea what to do with it.  It’s no use for me now and it’s certainly of no use for you.  So, what are we gonna do about it?  It’s not like it’s transferable.  I did try with drinking, but that didn’t turn out so well.  So, maybe we can at least be friends with you having absolutely no idea this happened/is happening. I think it’s better that way.  You have me as a friend and I have you in my life. PERFECT!  Everybody wins.  More for you though.

My fag, Patrick, did ask me, “If you had gotten a taste of him, would you shut up now?,”.  Well, YES. Maybe. I dunno. How the hell am I supposed to know? Go ask Charlie in that alternate universe!

#depressedmartes #bittertuesdays #charengLOL